fight it every day
you've been looking at me
like i was the woman that you
used to look at
the girl who bummed a cigarette
and never ever could
tell you why or show surprise
you've been telling me
you appreciate the strides i'm making
most of all just that you notice
that i'm trying
and it's for me
and you get drunk
and say those things
as if you never loved another
like the way that you love me
and you get drunk
and hold me close
and turn to run
before you do
something you'll regret
those hands my weakness
the very center of me
hanging motionless
when caught in those bright eyes
you can't see it
for all you ever thank me for
the best i gave is that one thing
i never can reveal
and you get drunk
and say those things
as if you never loved another
like the way that you love me
and you get drunk
and hold me close
and turn to run
before you do
something you'll regret
and even what you hide
the joints you don't show anyone
they do me in
a brush a blow a nudge
like the thoughts you have
you harbor deep inside
that shine out from those eyes
[a scream]
a language i cannot translate
[but feel]
like the only best thing
i cannot reveal
and you get drunk
and say those things
as if you never loved another
like the way that you love me
and you get drunk
and hold me close
and turn to run
before you do
something you'll regret
olivia bitting 2002
