just fine until we go outside
just keep telling yourself
you had such a great time
withold the details from me
so it looks like i am
trying to be one up
one up on you
but don't forget to forget
what the truth is
if you get home and you realize
you'll feel like shit
oh no i don't believe you
you never get any play
i think you drank a lot and
smoked it up some and then
went home all alone
to sleep it off
just keep acting as if
you don't care about me
when you get drunk i try
to be far away
you get all glassy eyed
and you hold my hand
whispering our friendship
right next to my head
it's all good until we go outside
it's just fine until we say goodbye
i keep myself together
stay within the lines
until you look at me
like last year
with those damned blue eyes
oh no i don't believe you
you would never touch me
it's been so long since i had you fooled
i think you drank too much and
looked at me and thought that
i was someone else
you knew long ago
and i will make sure that you believe me
when i say that i won't go back there
make my eyes steel up and meet you gladly
throw indifference in here and there
it's alright until you've had five beers or so
it's so easy until you move close
you don't mean it so i can't be angry
at least when you're wasted
you can't hear it in my throat cause
i live with it every day
and i don't believe you ever did
i fight it with a strength that could open your eyes wide
but we both know i never will give in
it's just a little tough that
you would never touch me
it's been so long since i had you fooled
i think you drank too much and
looked at me and thought that
i was someone else
you knew long ago
olivia bitting 2001
